tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85819028912378237012024-02-20T02:56:39.138+08:00JuanderlastWanderlust dapat ang title ng blog ko. Pero malamang taken na yun, so gagawin ko sanang Juanderlust para may Pinoy twist. Akalain mong taken na yun? Kaya Juanderlast na lang. Barok kung barok. ||||| Juanderlast - n. mga Paglalakbay, sa buhay, sa karir, at sa kung saan pa, ng isang taong naghahanap lamang ng dahilan para manatili sa isang lugar.Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.comBlogger62125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-1320459281257225432013-11-11T05:00:00.001+08:002013-11-11T05:00:52.736+08:00Let's Help Out<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Okay, so we all know by now that what happened in the Visayas was a tragedy. The full story is still being pieced together, but the picture that's unfolding is not very pretty.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I would like to encourage everyone who comes across this post to help out. I really hope it's in a big way, because, really, small things count, but they really need more. But, hey, we help in our little ways, don't we?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I have this link bookmarked: http://www.rappler.com/move-ph/issues/disasters/43300-reliefph-victims-typhoon-yolanda-help</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It contains information on some places where relief donations are being consolidated, and/or how to donate if you're overseas. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Let's all do our share.</span>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-35306586473871990902013-09-26T03:30:00.003+08:002013-09-26T03:30:57.626+08:00Rupture in Abstraction<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">There is a uniqueness in this tune</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That only the past rhythm dictates</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">With even the discordant tones</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Dictating a shift in movement</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I go down to the very center</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The pin point that is the crux of all</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I feel the slightest of pinches</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Disappearing into thick outer walls</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The word loss is lost in this maze</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Of branched out fragments whirling</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Forming a pattern but hardly ever</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Falling into place on the ground</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The identity of the pinch</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Belongs to traitorous intentions</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Debilitating and scarring</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But one with shallow roots</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A soothing salve is out of reach</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I avail of sand-dictated medication</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Veering off into the tangent sunrise</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Licking and struggling but moving</span>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-78420771326037213912013-07-12T05:22:00.001+08:002013-07-12T05:22:57.891+08:00Meaning<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The harder one seeks, the emptier one's cup becomes. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So one ponders in one corner to conserve energy.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Maybe a burst of inspiration comes</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In the form of a word, a phrase, a memory</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Or simply, the nagging sense that one has to go on.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And, as with all things transcendental,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">One questions the outcome</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But doubt in this sense</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Is not in the same plane as faith.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Repeat ad nauseum.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-41624108754328673592013-07-02T22:01:00.000+08:002013-07-02T22:01:00.406+08:00Taphophobia<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A heart still beats.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Barely.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">When I couldn't find a suitable answer, I chose to edit the post at the very last minute.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The answers will remain with me, instead. The person who holds the key to unlock them hasn't asked for them. It's just as well. They're of no consequence anyway. Besides, the moment has passed. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Too bad, really. It wasn't supposed to play out this way. But, my resolve has been steeled by how events played out these last few hours.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The only thing I will say is that <b>words are powerful</b>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That day, I chose to be silent. I remain silent.</span>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-62783660596155981132013-03-04T21:51:00.002+08:002013-03-04T21:52:17.700+08:00How to Say Forever<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Back in the day, I remember watching an interview of Shania Twain talking about the inspiration for her song, "From This Moment On." In it, she said that she wanted to say "forever" without specifically saying "forever," hence the phrase that would become the song's title. That song has since become a smash, and a staple of the sappy radio stations playlists (not to mention, seedy beer houses), but whenever I hear it, I always remember that what she wanted to achieve with that song was to say "forever" in a new way.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Fast forward to 2013, and I am absolutely in love with a song by a heretofore unknown band called The Cab. And the song I'm currently in love with works on a similar concept as Shania's earlier effort. Sure, I liked one of their earlier songs, but this one, dare I say a word that I think I've used far too often, <b><i>resonates</i></b> with me. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Coincidentally, the song was co-written by Mr. Pinoy Pride himself, Bruno Mars.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">At the risk of making them more popular than they are (which is what they deserve anyway), here I am, sharing this gem of a find with you, interwebz. Enjoy. Stay in love.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><b>Endlessly</b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><i>by The Cab</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">There's a shop down the street </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Where they sell plastic rings </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">For a quarter a piece I swear it </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Yeah I know that it's cheap </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Not like gold in your dreams </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But I hope that </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">You'll still wear it </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Yeah, the ink may stain my skin </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And my jeans may all be ripped </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm not perfect but I swear </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm perfect for you </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And there's no guarantee </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">That this'll be easy </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">It's not a miracle you need </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Believe me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Yeah I'm no angel </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm just me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But I will love you endlessly </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Wings aren't what you need </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">You need me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">There's a house on the hill </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">With a view of the town </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And I know how you adore it </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">So I'll work everyday </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Through the sun and the rain </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Until I can afford it </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Yeah your friends might think I'm crazy </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But they can only see </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm not perfect</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But I swear I'm perfect for you </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And there's no guarantee </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">That this'll be easy </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">It's not a miracle you need </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Believe me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Yeah I'm no angel </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm just me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But I will love you endlessly </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Wings aren't what you need </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">You need me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Ink may stain my skin </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And my jeans may all be ripped </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm not perfect but I swear </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm perfect for you </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And there's no guarantee </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">That this'll be easy </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">It's not a miracle you need </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Believe me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Yeah I'm no angel </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I'm just me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But I will love you endlessly </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Wings aren't what you need </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">You need me </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">There's a shop down the street </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Where they sell plastic rings </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">For a quarter a piece I swear it </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Yeah I know that it's cheap </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Not like gold in your dreams </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">But I hope that </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">You'll still wear it</span><br />
<br />Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-49862544642401556102012-09-28T08:32:00.005+08:002013-04-22T07:31:14.968+08:00Lost in Translation<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I miss the days when things were effortless</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">When we'd finish each other's sentences.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">These days, I find myself second-guessing</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The meaning behind your statements.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It seems to me that the biggest follies</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Are the fewness of your years</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And the freshness of your experience</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And the obstinacy of my own mind.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And therein lies the rub.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">We don't speak the same words anymore</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The facade has crumbled.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">We are markedly different.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But, that's all right.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I did promise to make this work.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">There's too just too much being carried</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That can just as easily be jettisoned.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Maybe in a few years, you'll know what I mean</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">By then, you will have either moved on</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Or you might still be stuck with me</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Whatever the case, just soldier on.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">You are so much better than this.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">We are so much bigger than this.</span>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-46780639564335913572012-08-05T16:51:00.002+08:002012-08-05T16:52:34.019+08:00Segundo<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so it comes to this.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Pettiness. Triviality.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Spite. Hurt.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'm not sure exactly what I feel.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I didn't know how much you cut me</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Until I woke up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I don't want to explain anymore. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I feel that even if I did</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Explanations aren't welcome anyway.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I need a bit of introspection.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Think things through.<br />Let the cooler me prevail.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I shall soak it in.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Wallow in the feeling.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Process.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">If I find myself in that familiar place</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">At the end of all this</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'll know what to do.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No promises. No assurances.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No effort at least for now.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No nothing. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I struggle to determine</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Whether this is prose or poetry.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Maybe it's neither.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Perhaps the single biggest tragedy</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Is that you bring out the worst in me.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I'm left wounded</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But it's the one blight</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">On an otherwise flawless canvas.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">It isn't even your fault</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">That such a travesty occurs.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The fingers all point to me</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And the voices that have taken hold</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Expectation</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Frustration</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Assumption</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Amusing how they all rhyme</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Missing that one other rhyming word </span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc;"><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">That would r</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">ender them</span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Irrelevant.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I started on the wrong foot.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">This really is intended to be </span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Quite the opposite of how it now reads </span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So far.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I shall now devote time</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">To the myriad of pleasantries</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">You bring.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Your smile as you get in the car.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The occasional snarky comment.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Your sweaty palm against mine, </span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I live for these simple moments.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The way your head feels on my shoulder</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">As I beg you to take a nap.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The way you'd always protest.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The first time you wore a cap.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I love the way you write</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And how you go on about your passions.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">How you hug me oh so tight.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">How you don't give an eff about fashion.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The naughty look on your face</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">During your pathetic attempts to tickle me.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And all that sniffing. Man. All that sniffing.</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">That God for perfumes and Duty Free!</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I shall end here</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Not because there isn't any more</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But because this hasn't been well thought-out. (Hahaha!)</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I thought I might as well </span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Squeeze one out</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #cccccc; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">While the emotion is fresh.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #eeeeee; color: #eeeeee; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">P.S. Next time, it will be so much better than this.</span>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-39298929402667910372012-04-24T02:39:00.003+08:002012-04-24T02:42:15.171+08:00Number 1<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I don't like going down the same road twice.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Comfort is never my cup of tea.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And yet, I find myself back to the place</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Where it all began. Where it all begins.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I know this place. I've been here before.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I've navigated each nook and cranny.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I know the grooves on the floor,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And the edges of the furniture,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I can walk about barefoot</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And blindfolded.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But I choose not to, anyway.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Each step I take is full of trepidation</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">For though I've been here before<br />I know not where this road leads.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Will I find my way back?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Will I get stuck along the way?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Do I really want to take another step?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I pause. I reflect. I ponder.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I muse upon my misgivings.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And I tell myself,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"That's enough for tonight."</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And right before I do call it a night,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I smile.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">When art and life move together in a seemingly pre-orchestrated dance, one can't help but acknowledge the presence of some higher power working behind the scenes. Or maybe it's just whimsy. Whatever the case, I woke up today to the sad news of the untimely demise of the incomparable Whitney Houston. I wasn't her biggest fan. But I do remember learning every nuance of <b><i>I Will Always Love You</i></b> when I was younger. Never mind that my voice (even when I was a young boy) wasn't suited for the song. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But, <b><i>Why Does It Hurt So Bad </i></b>would remain my all-time favorite. Strangely, even more so than <b><i>When You Believe</i></b>, a duet with MC, the ingenue of my youth. Or maybe it was because of the emotion she put across in this particular performance. And, the masochistic martyr in me responded.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">As I reflect on the song tonight, I can't help but respond to the song again. This time, not out of the naive yearning for love, and not just in commisseration with the loss of one of the music world's biggest icons, but out of the weary yet hopeful process of heartbreak. As I told somebody earlier today, time heals "old" wounds. Maybe in time, I will listen to this song again and not remember the day when I could relate to it so. Or maybe, just maybe, what I'm going through will add this new dimension of memories that will make the song even richer than it already is. Who knows?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">RIP, Whitney. You are in better hands now.</span></div>
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<br />Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-37562472697667826692011-10-07T01:05:00.001+08:002011-10-07T01:07:17.057+08:00Remembering Steve Jobs<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I can't say I'm a die hard Apple fan because I've always been more of a value-for-money kind of guy than a flashy gadget techie. Despite that, I still own a couple of Apple products, both of which occupy a particularly meaningful place in my life. But, really, it's more than just these products.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I'm affected by this man because he stands as the testament that one should never give up. Life can throw you so many curve balls. Sometimes, a few of those are bound to hit you. And you pick yourself up each time.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">He dropped out of college. A lot of us would probably consider that a big failure. But, he turned this into an opportunity. He used his time studying calligraphy. A pretty non-practical field of study, if you ask me. He used this skill into making what was then a revolutionary typeface that eventually became the standard for fonts in computers when he co-founded Apple.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But, that was not the last of the curveballs to hit him.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">In 1985, he was forced out of Apple because of disagreements over the company's strategy. A lot of people counted him out then. What can you do when you're forced out of something that you were responsible for? His answer was, to create something new entirely. He went on to acquire that money making machine we owe a lot of laughs (and a few tears too) that is called Pixar. He also acquired a company called NeXT. It was this move that would lead him back to the Apple boardroom when the merger of NeXT and Apple was finalized in 1997.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And we all know (somewhat) what happens next.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So, on behalf of those of us you have inspired, be it because of innovation or the sheer depth of your life, thank you, Steve. You will be remembered. </span></div>
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Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-74608837326725026052011-09-21T10:25:00.001+08:002011-09-21T10:25:12.286+08:00Why You Turn Up So Late?!!!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I really could have used something like this months ago. I wonder if I asked somebody to fill this out now, would the answers satisfy me? Probably not as much as the actual cuddling. Hehehe.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">In case you guys are in need of some human contact, here you go. Happy cuddling, and let the applications begin!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"He gave me pastries," he said, "and a box of Nestle Cream. I had told him that my mom had gone to the stores and they had run out because it was the Christmas season. He got some for me. Who could forget that?" The gesture was vaguely familiar. The words registered in my head. That does sound like something I would do. But I don't recall who I did it for.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"He drove me home." When he almost accurately described my car, I almost certainly knew that it was me sitting behind the steering wheel. But then, I don't remember picking him up in Ortigas. I was not a fan of Ortigas back then, its streets proving to be more than enough challenge for my then fledgling sense of direction. I don't remember ever bringing somebody home to his village in Paranaque. I would've remembered. I kept thinking about the routes I would've taken to try and joggle my sleeping memories. I came up with nothing. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">With a flawlessly-executed routine (and homage to the Queen of Pop) like this one, we can say that we all thought about bleaching our hair. Even for just a while.</span></div>
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Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-33089719324359969682011-09-14T00:12:00.000+08:002011-09-14T00:18:06.775+08:00The Cheater Magnet<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So I've been coming cross cheaters lately. I'm not sure why. If you knew me, you'd know that cheating is a pet peeve. And yet, most of the guys I've been talking to these past few weeks/months have been cheaters. I really don't mind as much as I did, back when I was actively looking for a relationship. It's just a bit disconcerting to note this fact now. Maybe I'm being given signs about fidelity in relationships? Maybe I'm being reminded about loyalty? Or maybe, just maybe, I'm meant to direct these guys to the right path. If it's the last one, let me let out one big UGH. Seriously. I've had enough.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">On a lighter note, in the words of Carmi Martin from the trailer of the upcoming Star Cinema film, No Other Woman:<i> "Ang mundo ay isang malaking Quiapo, maraming snatcher. Maagawan ka. Lumaban ka."</i></span></div>
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Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-58799625604130454612011-09-11T16:54:00.005+08:002011-09-11T17:04:31.042+08:00Perspective<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I never met AJ. In fact, I hardly knew the guy. Save for the fact that I read his blog, which was one of the first gay blogs I ever read. I found him inspiring in a way especially since what he wrote about resonated with me. I found out about his condition in MGG, one of the first gay blogs I read, too. I don't remember where I found out that AJ had passed on. All I know is that, I felt a certain sense of loss with his passing. I know what I feel can't possibly compare to what his family and friends must be feeling. Still, I would like to think that, like a "familiar stranger," he was a part of my life.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Before I move on, I would like to point out that his family is asking for volunteers to contribute to a fund for him. Details can be found here: <a href="http://www.facebook.com/fundsforAJ?sk=info">http://www.facebook.com/fundsforAJ?sk=info</a>.</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">If you have something to spare, then please do contribute. It will be much appreciated.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">As I did not know AJ, I can't conceivably write a tribute. Instead, I will focus on an aspect of his life that touched mine: his blog entries. Today, I would like to recall something he wrote last year, just as he was about to turn 28. He died two days shy of his 29th birthday this year. This post is something that I have long held true. Never mind that I will probably don't share his "over enthusiasm" for one's finer qualities. The thought is still there. With his passing, the search for love in my life has been given a whole new perspective. AJ, when all this is no more than just a passing dream, I will shake your hand.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Full post here: <a href="http://baklaako.com/resources/why-no-one-wants-to-date-me/">http://baklaako.com/resources/why-no-one-wants-to-date-me/</a></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I used to think that having a boyfriend was the be-all and end-all of my being gay. I used to sleep around too much thinking that I would finally find that someone who can make me happy. After few failed relationships and used condoms, I finally found that person – MYSELF!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #4d4d4d; line-height: 18px;"></span></span><br />
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</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I have since realized that the only person who can give me happiness the way I want it, is no one else but myself. So now I’m overflowing with love and happiness – from myself, my friends<span class="IL_AD" id="IL_AD3" style="background-attachment: scroll !important; background-clip: initial !important; background-image: none !important; background-origin: initial !important; background-position: 0% 50%; background-repeat: repeat repeat !important; border-bottom-color: rgb(51, 51, 255) !important; border-bottom-style: dotted !important; border-bottom-width: 1px !important; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #3333ff; cursor: pointer !important; display: inline !important; float: none !important; font-style: normal !important; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 1px !important; padding-left: 0px !important; padding-right: 0px !important; padding-top: 0px !important; position: static; vertical-align: baseline;"> </span>and my family. There is nothing wrong with being single</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">. I am a single, content, confident and happy woman, err man.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">So here’s one thing I realized this year: No one wanted to date me because I was so full of myself. My online dating profiles</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"> intimidated many. Why, you ask? Read the following contests (written in 2006) from one of my online profiles:</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I just want to find that someone who can make me feel needed and wanted, while at the same time make me want and need him. I want to find that someone who can shut me up with a kiss whenever I go on rambling and talking relentlessly. I want to find that someone who can laugh at me and laugh with me. I want to find that someone who can tell me pointblank and in an in-your-face manner that I am wrong, if I ever am. I want to find that someone with whom I can face each and everyday with hope and a wanting for a brighter day ahead. And I just want to find that someone who, without any explanation, or beyond reason, can look me in the eye and tell me he loves me… (or that I am a jerk, if this need ever arises).</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">If you get bored easily with a hell of a lot of text, then you might wanna skip this. I talk a lot and I often speak my mind. I can be very shallow and extremely deep when it comes to conversations. I can talk about anything and everything under the sun (sometimes I make sense, sometimes I don’t.)</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I have the tendency to want to be needed. Sometimes, I have the “Savior” complex. I just want to save the world, or at the very least, people. (But we all know this is not possible)</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*loves a good laugh</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*is kept alive by humor</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*believes that everything happens for a reason.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*is a people-pleaser</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*loves subjecting self to martyrdom</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*smokes. Lucky Strike Filters.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*can be a snob.but can be friendly at the same time.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*at times is a loner. but blends in with any group of people.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*loves coffee</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*has no regrets in life</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*is straight-acting and discreet</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*hates liars and pretenders.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*hates people who ask for passwords when they can’t give you anything short of a g4m default no-pic profile site.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*f***ing hates missed calls.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*hates people who do not have face pics to offer (i have to see the facade that holds your brain. I wanna see your eyes so I may be able to see through to your soul)</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*gives more value to a face picture than a naked one</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">*hates social climbers</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And that’s just the About Me portion. I used to believe that I was so good a catch that I had the gall to require the people who asked me out to subscribe to my standards. Some of these things are still true about me until today. But now, I don’t really care much, if at all.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">At one point in my life, I came to realize that the universe did not, does not, and will never revolve around me. And that's when it finally hit me: no one wants to date an intimidating prick like I was before.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Early into the movie, I realized that this movie was slightly different from your typical comedy. It began to seem like a veiled commentary on contemporary Philippine homosexuality. From then on, I expected the movie to have a redeeming message. Perhaps, say, one of equality and acceptance? Eventually, the movie veered into related, yet somehow, indirect, territory. And this is, also, where the spoilers start. You have been warned.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">1 - Homosexuality as a curse. How very tongue-in-cheek. Who hasn't heard these words before? The movie takes this on very literally at the beginning, when the titular character is cursed for calling a gay guy, well, "gay." <i>Somehow, the word doesn't sound as derogatory when translated in English. Anyway. You get the point. </i> </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Remington has to know what it feels like to be gay to be more accepting of gay men. But, he doesn't really become "gay" enough to experience the "downside" of being gay. People generally still thought of him as straight, despite his awkward gait and his changed manner of dress. Never mind that he has now become fluent in bekimese. Somehow, these didn't shed any negative light on his character (not that it should, but it does!). In fact, he wasn't even spurned by (a) lover(s) (I'm sure, a most common affliction among us gay men) and didn't find trouble finding affection. In other words, the guy had it easy. The fictionalized version of Lucban, Quezon was very accepting of gay men, save for the antagonists, who are eventually revealed to have "issues" of their own. Unless, the filmmakers are trying to portray this as the Utopian version of our world, but that just runs contrary to the tongue-in-cheekness of everything else.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">2 - Homosexual stereotypes. Sure, the movie revealed that there's more to gay men than just dressing up in drag or being beauty parlor queens, but I felt that they could have done more. The surprise "reveal" of who were, in the end, closeted gays, could have been easily overlooked. The film could have examined the whole subculture of straight acting gay men, too. I'm sure that would have some laughs too more than the slapstick (and frankly, dated) humor of the parloristas. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Then again, so many serious gay indie films have tackled that subject matter before, it would've made the film stereotypical. I just think that, being a mainstream success like it is now, it was a missed opportunity to educate. We so lack these "role models" for gay men growing up. A gap needs to be filled. Papa P is our closest hope. Haha!</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">3 - The "true" nature of homosexuality. This was a smart movie in the sense that it was subtle enough to veil its message through dialogue. The writers put in nuggets about acceptance, equality, and even nobility through the characters' banter. "True" gay men are those who know what they want, and fight for what's right, and don't let things happen to them. No argument here. Despite that, I didn't feel like these made a lasting impression. Looking back, these lines somehow come off as cheesy. That may have been a conscious effort. Maybe the filmmakers did not want to rock the boat too much. Or maybe it was just the quality of the acting. Either way, the message was there. It was on the surface, but not obvious enough for me.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Then, there's the resolution of the story. You want the curse to end? Pass it on. One hopes that everyone knows that homosexuality is not a contagious disease. What's the cure? Find (1) a straight guy who (2) hasn't done the nasty with a gay man and (3) who was willing to take on the curse. Funny how they had a hard time finding a guy who met the first two criteria. But really, why pass on the curse in the first place, when the protagonist hasn't really redeemed himself yet? The dialogue seems to indicate that it's because Remington doesn't "deserve" to be gay.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Like I said in number 1, I didn't feel that Remington was "gay" enough to have really learned his lesson. Despite the best effort of the dialogue to paint the picture that he doesn't deserve to be gay because he isn't as "noble" as gay men, the whole point felt forced and rushed. Later on, his dad takes on the curse for him, saying he wants his son to be happy. Does being gay necessarily lead to an unhappy life? I may complain a lot, but I know it's not impossible to be happy. </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So, now, Remington's father is gay. He checks out other men with his wife. He made this decision for the "good" of his son without consulting his wife, and just dismissed it with a "she'll understand." Call me a traditionalist, but that just didn't sit well with me. A father's sacrifice is understandable, laudable even, but the context is problematic. He is a gay married man after all. Then again, the filmmakers didn't quite explore this portion in depth, as I imagine, this would dig up a can of worms.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(Reblogging from the Lonely Planet blog): <a href="http://www.lonelyplanet.com/blog/2011/09/08/passports-a-perspective-from-phil-keoghan/">http://www.lonelyplanet.com/blog/2011/09/08/passports-a-perspective-from-phil-keoghan/</a> (Emphasis below, mine.)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Lonely Planet is featuring perspectives on the "importance of owning and using a passport" to celebrate the US National Passport Day on September 17. The first guy out the dugout is Phil Keoghan, whom most of us know better as the host of the The Amazing Race (US).</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;">I had my first passport when I was two years old. (My own daughter got her first passport when she was two weeks old.) By the time I was 12, I had traveled extensively through the Americas. I even flew by myself from the Caribbean back to New Zealand to attend boarding school. I got the travel bug early. Now every time I look up and see a plane in the sky, I dream of somewhere new.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;"></span></blockquote>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;">It’s imperative that we get students curious and hungry about the world early. The most opportune time to travel is straight out of school, when you can just pack your bags and go. Travel is the most valuable education money can’t buy – an opportunity to be resourceful and learn lessons that will affect the way we live the rest of our lives.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;"></span></blockquote>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;">As people grow older, they become more rigid in their ways of thinking. They make up more excuses. They make the assumption that they can only leave their house and go overseas if they have a lot of time and money. My whole philosophy is that imagination is your currency, not the money you have in your wallet.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;"></span></blockquote>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;">Americans often tell me, ‘But we’ve got it all here. We’ve got ever <i>(sic)</i> culture.’ Americans do have a lot, but not everything. My favorite moments on <em style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The Amazing Race</em> are when we have people who have never crossed the border, never owned passports, and never left their home state. When they end up in a place like India, it’s as if they’ve landed on another planet. There’s nowhere you can go in America that’s like Kolkata. This kind of experience gives you perspective, and a different understanding of the world.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;"></span></blockquote>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;">Fear stops many of us from getting on planes. One of the things that excites me about <em style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The Amazing Race</em> is that millions of viewers see everyday people in the Arab world, Asia and everywhere else doing acts of kindness for Americans. These are powerful images. <em style="border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;">The Amazing Race</em> allows you to vicariously experience the world, but I promise you it’s better in person.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;"></span></blockquote>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;">I’ve found out that having a passport ultimately isn’t so much about the places that it allows you to go as the people who want to share their world with you. When people travel, they do talk about the postcard images they’ve seen of, say, Patagonia, but what they really remember is the human connections they make.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;"></span></blockquote>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; line-height: 24px;">I’ve always had a passport. In a true sense, it’s a ticket to your dreams. <b><u><i>Travel is about immersing yourself in something new, allowing yourself to be a fish out of water and just trusting that things will work out.</i></u></b> It may not be like home, but so what? It doesn’t have to be. It’s time to get lost. The world is waiting for you!</span></blockquote>
Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-43001600108274061352011-07-14T15:50:00.000+08:002011-07-14T15:50:29.101+08:00Luha<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.youtube.com/embed/l4Df8z7cV8A?feature=player_embedded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: xx-small;">Video courtesy of Youtube</span></div><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Isang patak ng luha.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Maraming balahibong tumayo.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Sayang at ito na ang huling linggo na sila'y magsasama. Pero salamat. Salamat. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Ang ganda.</span><br />
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</span>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-71283089183853284662011-07-12T02:02:00.000+08:002011-07-12T02:02:14.844+08:00Of Weddings and Unintended Consequences<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/3/3d/Wedding_rings.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/3/3d/Wedding_rings.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: xx-small;">Photo courtesy of <a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/3/3d/Wedding_rings.jpg">http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/3/3d/Wedding_rings.jpg</a></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">This post will be in English. Yes. Strike three. Almost fitting, if I'm going to be "out." But I guess this is not the sort of outing that I was expecting. Or maybe any of you are thinking.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I "lost" a best friend over the weekend. Okay, so maybe lost is such a strong word. Whatever the appropriate word is, one of my best friends got married. This wasn't the first wedding I've ever attended. Certainly not this year. Heck, he was not even the first in our group of friends to get married. And yet, there he was, my best friend. He used to be this awkward guy that everybody almost ignored. But to me, he was the friend I sorely needed. And that, he was. And that night, he was the toast of the town. I was proud.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Looking back, if I had told him earlier that I was coming, I think he would've asked me to give the toast for him. I imagine what type of speech I would've given. Something funny. Something personal. Something gut-wrenching and heartfelt. And yet, I had to sit through some other guy talk about him and his relationship with a girl he barely even knew. But that's all in the past. I now look towards the future.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">My friends, being the rowdy bunch that we are, kept on passing the ball, as it were, as to who would get married next. I hadn't introduced a girl but I had reservations for two. I should've been out of the picture. But everybody kept harping on the possibility that I would be married next. I agree with them wholeheartedly. I'm ready to settle down. It's just that, I really wanted it to be with a man. But therein lies my problem.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I no longer hope that what I want is something that a guy can give me. I was born and raised with a particular set of values. I want a guy who understands that, and is willing to work with that. And in my very core, I know that I can't change just like that. After so long, I have yet to meet the guy who shares these same values. I am not getting any younger. Perhaps it is a just a pipe dream that such a guy exists. If happiness is something that I can generate for myself without relying on externalities, I can be truly happy even with a "compromised" view of life.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Just like a bolt out of blue, tonight, I chanced upon Soltero's blog. To be honest, earlier on, I avoided blogs like his like the plague. I don't care for the sensationalized sex encounters or the blatant demonstrations of ego and libido. <i>I will keep further opinions to myself, as they hardly help further my point.</i> However, reading the last few entries, about his forays into the straight world, I couldn't help but feel that I understand where his sense of peace is coming from.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So what am I trying to say in this rambling post, exactly? That I am back to where I started roughly 5 years ago. I am back to the point where I said to myself, I may be like this, but I would still like to find a nice woman with whom I will build my family. I will be the best father I can be. I will provide for them. I will lavish her with gifts and romance and all the best that I can muster. I will strive to erase the habits the last 5 years have given me - meaningless glances, fabricated online personas, and forgotten names in my phone contact list.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Don't get me wrong. I won't force it. I'd still rather be forever single than be with somebody I don't love. It's just that, this time, for the first time in 5 years, I'm more open than ever that my forever may not be with a guy. It's not so bad. Seriously.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-43003223680023754512011-07-04T10:46:00.001+08:002011-07-04T10:46:47.423+08:00Lambat<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.youtube.com/embed/xDSW7XsuofE?feature=player_embedded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: xx-small;">Video courtesy of Youtube</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: xx-small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Ang So You Think You Can Dance na yata ang isa sa mga pinakapaborito kong Reality Shows. Pero sa taong ito, naging masyado akong abala sa kung anu-ano na hindi ko man lang namalayan na nagsimula na pala sila ulit. </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
Ang masaya nito, dalawang Pinoy (na lalaki) ang pumasok sa Top 20 sa season ngayon. Sila ay si Tadd (na isang maayos din na mananayaw, tubong San Francisco), at si Marko, na nasa taas, tubong Guam.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Pero higit sa pagiging Pinoy ni Marko, napukaw ulit ang damdamin ko sa kantang ito ni Leona Lewis, na matagal ko na rin namang gusto pero nabaon ko na sa limot.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Ang masasabi ko lang, ang sarap sana kung may makantahan na rin ako ng kantang ito sa wakas. Kahit ano pa man ang mangyari, sasaluhin ko siya. Peksman.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>I Got You</b></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b><i>Leona Lewis</i></b></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">A place to crash, I got you<br />
No need to ask, I got you<br />
Just get on the phone, I got you<br />
Come and pick you up if I have to<br />
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What's weird about it is we're right at the end<br />
I'm mad about it, just figured it out in my head<br />
I'm proud to say I got you<br />
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Go ahead and say goodbye, I'll be alright<br />
Go ahead and make me cry, I'll be alright<br />
And when you need a place to run to<br />
For better, for worse I got you, I got you<br />
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Ain't falling apart or bitter<br />
Let's be bigger than that and remember<br />
The cooling outdoor, when you're all alone<br />
Won't survive it, no drama, no need for a show<br />
Just wanna say I got you<br />
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Go ahead and say goodbye, I'll be alright<br />
Go ahead and make me cry, I'll be alright<br />
And when you need a place to run to<br />
For better, for worse I got you<br />
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'Cause this is love and life<br />
And nothing we can both control<br />
And if it don't feel right<br />
You're not losing me by letting me know<br />
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Go ahead and say goodbye, I'll be alright<br />
Go ahead and make me cry, I'll be alright<br />
And when you need a place to run to<br />
For better, for worse I got you<br />
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A place to crash, I got you<br />
No need to ask, I got you</span></span></div>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-6430073876776049642011-07-03T00:15:00.000+08:002011-07-03T00:15:43.744+08:00Tiwala<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsCs4-w30PnRuFKQVIxefhGm3zWGyQ52pTYkxIjXMKSfnBSpX29v54ZxkGKUj9_2GVZk6Z6-xtXK1otNTudRpNwIDsfjO6Wru1F5TJ8Vzz1HYQTktz5XNIacttcfRswcoMbhmE12C6SF-X/s1600/IMG_1042.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="212" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsCs4-w30PnRuFKQVIxefhGm3zWGyQ52pTYkxIjXMKSfnBSpX29v54ZxkGKUj9_2GVZk6Z6-xtXK1otNTudRpNwIDsfjO6Wru1F5TJ8Vzz1HYQTktz5XNIacttcfRswcoMbhmE12C6SF-X/s320/IMG_1042.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: xx-small;">Photo courtesy of <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsCs4-w30PnRuFKQVIxefhGm3zWGyQ52pTYkxIjXMKSfnBSpX29v54ZxkGKUj9_2GVZk6Z6-xtXK1otNTudRpNwIDsfjO6Wru1F5TJ8Vzz1HYQTktz5XNIacttcfRswcoMbhmE12C6SF-X/s1600/IMG_1042.jpg">https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsCs4-w30PnRuFKQVIxefhGm3zWGyQ52pTYkxIjXMKSfnBSpX29v54ZxkGKUj9_2GVZk6Z6-xtXK1otNTudRpNwIDsfjO6Wru1F5TJ8Vzz1HYQTktz5XNIacttcfRswcoMbhmE12C6SF-X/s1600/IMG_1042.jpg</a></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Sabi nila, ang tiwala hindi hinihingi. Ito'y binibigay nang kusa. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Kaya siguro mahirap na rin oras na nasiraa na ang tiwala. Mahirap, o di kaya'y imposible nang buuin ito muli.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Nitong nakaraang linggo, may mga nakakausap ako na nagpaalala sa akin tungkol sa kahalagaan ng tiwala.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Yung isa, nagkaroon kami ng kuro-kuro tungkol sa pagbibigay ng pangalan. Oo na't mahalaga ang pangalan sa pakikipagkilala. Ang problema, maraming mga bagay ang nakakakabit sa pangalan. Nariyang ang reputasyon. Ang mga nagawang mabuti o masama man ng tao. Nariyan yung tinatawag na personang pampubliko ng tao, ang pagpapakilala niya sa nakararami. Pero, kung tutuusin, hindi ito nakakadagdag sa pagkilala mo sa tao. </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Para sa akin kasi, mahalaga na makilala mo yung tao muna. Paano siya pag unguarded siya. Pag akala niya walang nakatingin. Paano siya kausap. Paano siya mag-isip. Ito ang makakatulong sa pagkilatis mo kung siya ba yung tipong tao na gusto mo pang makilala nang lubusan. Hindi na mahalaga kung ano ang tunay niyang pangalan. Tsaka, sa panahon ngayon, oras na nakuha mo na ang pangalan ng tao, andali na lang para i-stalk siya gamit ang Google at kung ano pang mga pamamaraan. Shino-shortcut mo ang pagkilala sa tao. Hindi ito mainam.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Kaya napasok ang tiwala dito kasi nabanggit ng kausap ko na ibig sabihin lang nun, wala pa akong tiwala sa mga nakakausap ko. Tama naman siya. At doon ko nga unang nabanggit ang mga salitang, "<i>Trust is not given. It is earned.</i>" Kunwari lang marunong ako mag-English. Hehehe. </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Yung pangalawa naman, nag-uusap kami tungkol sa kanyang nakaraan. At dito rin naman napatunayan ko na mahalaga talagang nakikilala mo ang tao, at hindi ang kanyang reputasyon lamang. Sa pagkukuwento niya kasi, maayos ang kanyang buhay. Nagtatrabaho kung saan marami siyang natutulungan. Marangal ang kanyang pamumuhay. Matalino din siya. Masarap kausap. At, higit sa lahat, matagal sila ng nakaraan niyang ex. Umabot sila ng higit isang dekada. Okay na talaga. Nabubuhayan na ako ng loob na may pag-asa pa pala ang mga kagaya natin. Hanggang sa tinanong ko kung bakit sila naghiwalay.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"Nagloko ako," sambit niya. At doon na gumuho ang kanyang sandamakmak na pogi points sa aking paningin. Ang pinakamahirap na gawin ng mga taong nagtaksil sa isang relasyon, para sa akin, ay ang malinawagan kung bakit sila nagtaksil. Mabuti sana pag nalaman nila kung bakit. Magagawan na nila ng paraan ito para hindi na maulit. </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Kaso, hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin akong nakikilalang cheater na nakapagpaliwanag sa akin ng ganun. Madalas, ang mga nakakausap ko, ayaw na umulit dahil natatakot sila na masaktan ang kanilang mga magiging mahal sa buhay. Okay ito pansamantala. Kaso, pag dumating na naman ang pagkakataon (at malamang, darating talaga ito), at hindi pa nila nagagawan ng paraan ang dahil ng kanilang pagtaksil nang una, mas gagalingan na lang nila ang pagtatago ng pagtaksil. </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Tinanong ko ang kausap ko kung sa tingin niya maaulit pa ang pagtataksil niya, kung sakaling magkaroon siya ng bagong relasyon. Sagot niya, "Hindi ko alam." Hanga ako sa pagiging honest niya. Pero hindi ito nakakatulong sa pagbabago niya. Marahil, darating din ang oras na magbabago siya. Sana. Para na rin sa kanyang kapakanan.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Marahil isa yan sa mahabang listahan kung bakit ang tagal ko nang walang partner. Idagdag mo na rin siguro diyan ang kawalan ko ng itsura at charm. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Hehehe. Pero, mas pipiliin ko pa talagang maging single kaysa magkaroon ng relasyon na huwad. Ke open man yan o closed.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
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</span></div>Juan der Lasthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10799322368078982651noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8581902891237823701.post-53022338961272543842011-06-26T16:47:00.000+08:002011-06-26T16:47:15.899+08:00Isang Umaga<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNe_MDlyco7fLl4AQ2Ow9eePn2fJVXZAKsv7G1-rWWY3ZHKzpqEasx05in9qNylnVM5cwRVUisnSp4Hi6RaJoG8JhUA0KH-4jTWt0hqVGbe1vssmQ_3D2RdZ3DQfO9-U_DZYp9nUIRWIIy/s1600/P1150247.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNe_MDlyco7fLl4AQ2Ow9eePn2fJVXZAKsv7G1-rWWY3ZHKzpqEasx05in9qNylnVM5cwRVUisnSp4Hi6RaJoG8JhUA0KH-4jTWt0hqVGbe1vssmQ_3D2RdZ3DQfO9-U_DZYp9nUIRWIIy/s320/P1150247.JPG" width="208" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Di ako makatulog buong magdamag pagkatapos ng hagupit ni Falcon. Kaya, nag-usap kami ng isang kapwa insomniac habang lumalim ang gabi, hanggang sa nagbukang-liwayway na nang tuluyan.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Bigla niya akong tinanong kung umuulan pa rin sa Makati. Dumungaw ako sandali, at nakita ko na binabalot ng makapal na ulap ang mga matataas na gusali. Natuwa ako sa aking nakita kaya kinuha ko ang aking camera at kinunan ito.</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Kung naging maaga pa ako ng ilang sandali, baka mas makapal pa na ulap ang aking nakunan. </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br />
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